R A C H E L ' S

2012-01-15T01:34:00.001+08:00

When I saw you playing soccer at the cage and I could only say hi to all our mutual friends, but not you, I died a little inside.

I hate this idea of us not talking. But yet I was the one who asked for it. I seriously have no idea of what I'm doing at times. And I hate myself for that.

I get a lil upset when I see you talk to my friends. Idk if you feel the same way when I talk to your friends. I dislike us not talking. )':

Be my friend again, will you? Text me or give me a call, will you? Can we talk about this? I hope it's not too much to ask for.

I really want our friendship back. I don't want you to dislike me. Ryan, you still mean a lot to me. I want you back as a friend. It doesn't matter who you choose to be with in the end. I know I've no say over that. But plz, don't let this friendship end. Yes I know I was the one who started all these "stay away from me/ don't talk to me and all", but it was to help me walk away. Now that I achieved it, come back, my friend. Initiate it plz, for I really don't dare to.

I want you back as a friend so badly but yet I have no courage to start the convo. Where did all my courage go to?? I can only count on you to start this talk, that's if you're willing to.

If you want me back as a friend, talk to me again. Let's put the past behind.

2012-01-14T23:12:00.001+08:00

That very night on Christmas when I was at a party, you texted to ask me to meet you and your friends for a midnight movie. And although I knew I would be missing out on the fun at the party if I left, I still went ahead to meet you.

Didn't expect to be seeing you on Christmas so it was a pleasant surprize when I received the text. I cabbed down from Boon Lay all the way to The Cathay and when I reached it was almost 1am. We caught New Year's Eve tgt and by the time the movie ended it was already 3am plus in the morning.

I remembered myself falling asleep halfway through the movie in your arms and how you fed me when I wanted to drink. I remembered everything so clearly. I remembered how we strolled along town and when I was tired, you carried me on your back. How you kissed me in front of your friends not seeming to care about anything else. We were genuinely happy. These memories remain even though we are in a bad state now.

Do you still remember how happy you were when you went to sleep right next to me and woke up still next to me when we stayed over at your friend's place? And when we opened our eyes and smiled sweetly at each other and whispered in order not to wake the rest up. Do you still remember all these?

And when you surprised me at BAMP camp with a text saying, "I don't like watermelons.", I knew you came for the camp. Actually I knew you were gna come for it, but I pretended I didn't know in order not to spoil the surprize. How you told me to wake you up the next morning cuz you wanted me to be the first person you see when you're up.

I know that I was the one who wanted to end all of these. I'm no longer sad, just reminiscing the good old days. If I were to be sad, it would be about how ugly our friendship is now. I guess deep down we aren't happy with one another. Don't think we are friends anymore either. It's okay, I've come to terms with it.

I used to think that it's possible for lovers to remain as friends. I didn't believe in "If lovers are still friends, it's either they never loved each other or one of them still loves the other." However, you're the first one to prove me wrong. I guess that's because I truly loved you.

2012-01-03T15:21:00.001+08:00

I miss you, J.

2012-01-02T21:32:00.005+08:00

R, I’m finally able to walk away from you with pride and not tears.

I failed two times, please let me leave this time for good. Don’t come talking to me again, anymore.

I’m thankful that you said that you’ll help start my 2012 right and respected my sudden decision. It’ll be better for us this way.

When I said I like you, I really did. And now that I said I want to break free from all these relationship issues, I mean it too.

I’m sorry that we can’t be friends for now. Give me some time, maybe towards the end of this year, we can be friends again.

2012.

2012-01-02T04:46:00.001+08:00

Say goodbye to 2011 and welcome 2012.

Yes I clearly remembered almost everything of 2011 like it was just yesterday. Well, be it good or bad, we are done with 2011.

Forget the unhappy moments and embrace the new year.

So I spent my last few moments of 2011 and the first few hours of 2012 with Jasiel Glen Jinquan Justin Bernard Linda. The right company made the night a whole lot better.

At that very moment while we were catching the live fireworks at MBS, somehow I was so clear of what and who matters most to me.

I really wished that I didn't let go of you back in early Nov. But we were both not ready back then, so I supposed it was only right for us to make that decision.

Idk what 2012 have in store for us but I hope I'll still be able to countdown and catch the fireworks with you, a year from now.

2011-12-23T03:34:00.013+08:00

Here are some pictures of November & December 2011.

2011-12-12T02:12:00.008+08:00

I take back my words from the previous post. From the 12th to 24th, we didn't communicate. I was so lost. You just left, without a word. I wasn't sure if that meant the end but I convinced myself to believe that it was. And I admit that although I reassured everyone that I was fine, I really wasn't, at all.

I saw your name on my phone, once again. A sight that I thought I'd never see again. I read thru the 20-msg-long text. Didn't expect that you had so much to say to me. You apologized, you explained, you told me you weren't ready to be the goody good boyfriend I was looking for. I thought I'd cry while reading thru the text, be it tears of happiness cuz you finally initiated the talk, or tears of sadness as it marked the end of our 2 months of I don't know what, but I didn't tear at all. I could handle my emotions, somehow. And that was when I knew, I accepted this ending and have already let go.

I was really so confused and I admit that I doubted the contents of the text. I'm a girl, and I trust my sixth sense, up to you to believe if there's such thing, but mine's pretty accurate. I felt that you weren't exactly over me. But I dared not expect anymore, yes, I don't want disappointments again.

You told me you weren't ready to be tied down to anyone just yet. You said you are messed up, and your feelings are everywhere. I know you have feelings for her too. Somehow, you might find this hard to believe, but I was okay with you having her in your heart. Can't imagine I'm saying this yea? But I know that it's definitely possible for someone to like two people at once. And, I don't blame you. Instead, I blamed myself for not being able to make you love me, and only me.

I don't know what to say about this relationship. It's like, we weren't together, but we weren't normal friends either. There were happy moments, and of course unhappy moments. Jealousy, trust issues, commitments, how you hid the fact that you alr somehow had her, yet, still leading me on, making me feel like a third party. But of course, I won't forget the day when you sent me home, impromptu decision to meet me at Vivo because you wanted to prove that you care, 111111's text and the polar bear question.

Of course, I have to apologize too. For restricting you/ giving you the unhappy face whenever you said you were heading to the clubs. For being jealous all the time. For giving you unnecessary pressures. I'm sorry for trying to change you. I know well enough that when you love someone, you have to accept him or her completely. But plz try to understand where I'm coming from, I just want you to be an even better person. I wanted to bring out the best in you. I hope you will not blame me for doing so.

2 months, long or short for you, you decide. I'm happy that you've somewhat figured out who you are gonna be with. And, I sincerely want the best for you both. I want you to treat her right, she definitely deserves it. Don't break her heart. Girls can't deal with heartbreaks. Remember this well.

And as for us, we will continue to be friends. Nothing more and nothing less than that. Thank you for the memories, R.

2011-12-04T11:13:00.002+08:00

I came to realize that it was our friendship I fell in love with, and not you. And it should be the same case for you as well.

A year older.

2011-11-26T01:09:00.006+08:00

I had a really awesome 17th birthday. :) Thanks to Olivia, Renee and Annelisa for planning and the rest who turned up. :') And all the presents from everyone :> The surprise was successful cuz I really didn't see it coming as it was e-learning week and many of us were involved in RedCamp8, we all had duties and all, but they stayed back after their shifts and some even came to school specially to look for me even though they had no duty. Really touched. <3 We took like 900+ photos that day so if you want to see the pictures, fb plz, haha. 1 chocolate cupcake and 3 chocolate cakes this birthday. Thank you all my friends, really love you all deep deep hehe.

As for my wishes, 1 of it already came true. Hehe. Very happy with my life now, so let's thank God for everything :>

And yea here are my model shots~ Just kidding, plz don't laugh or judge LOLOL.

That's all, g'night x.

Parents' Seminar 2011

2011-11-20T01:03:00.011+08:00

Had a really great Saturday today.

Also, thank you Sheila and Annelisa for the surprise early bday cake <3

You girls are really damn sweet :>

Bottle Tree Park

2011-11-16T23:49:00.005+08:00

You're the apple of my eye.

2011-11-16T23:05:00.008+08:00

Caught 那些年，我們一起追的女孩 today and it was indeed a good production. The storyline wasn't smth new but I guess most teens could relate to it? Simple yet meaningful, typical high school romance with no happy ending. It actually made me felt that I wasted so much time on all the wrong guys for the past years. But what's done is done. Cried rather badly towards the end when the flashbacks were played. Not exactly the best timing to catch this movie cuz I've just gone thru the toughest period of 2011. Glad that it's finally all over. I'm already moving on and feeling a whole lot better. No regret, just found myself very naive. Should had known better. Not blaming anyone though, and he's not to be blamed as well. Cuz I willingly put myself into it for the second time. Just don't want people to get the wrong idea about him, especially to my group of close friends, I know you guys have all seen me burst out for hours several times, but some of the times, it was just me being emotional, he did nothing. It's sad to say that things kinda turned nasty and we're no longer friends I think? My first time not being able to handle a situation well, but I did my part already. Please don't link us together anymore.

And if you're reading this, I'm more than willing to be friends still. I hate losing people who used to mean so much to me.

2011-11-05T19:54:00.023+08:00

Photos of October

( Scarefest, Carnival Act and mixtures )

Photos of September

(Group 2's Chalet & iChalet)

2011-10-31T01:39:00.001+08:00

You added colors to my life. Thank you. :>

2011-10-02T20:14:00.003+08:00

Hi darlingssss I had a really great week and I'm glad that my 3 babies Yuting Ernest Hayden love their presents and enjoyed their bday celebration. We took many many pretty pictures we could see all the skyscrapers and MBS in the background hehe sounding like some suaku tourists k don't judge lol.

On another note, issues between J and I were finally settled. And I couldn't be more thankful than ever. I really appreciated all the help from all the bros and my dearest girls. J, if you ever see this, we definitely found out more abt each other and are better friends now. :)

Lastly, to all my dearest friends plz take good care of yourselves in M'sia. Can't wait to see all of you back from your trip, xoxo ( so 2008) hehe!

And here are the photos!

Jeremy

Yuting, birthday girl.

Weisheng Chris

Bernard Adam

Ernest Olivia

Yuting

Amalthea Yuting Kalista myself Olivia

Hayden, birthday boy 1.

Ernest, birthday boy 2.

Jeremy Bernard

Kalista Amalthea

the girls :)

Jon HAHA

the boys :)

REAO

Yuting Bernard

Weisheng

my babies :)

Justin

2011-09-26T17:44:00.016+08:00

BAmazing Race 7

10 & 11 Sept 2011

OEC Graduation Ceremony

16th Sept 2011.

HMM & SBA Chalet

20-22 Sept 2011.

You and I.

2011-09-18T01:01:00.002+08:00

:)

2011-09-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

You have no idea how great I felt after talking about it to you. You're happy, and I am happy too. I'm glad to have met someone like you.

2011

2011-09-07T02:23:00.011+08:00

This will be a photo-filled post with all the happiest moments captured down. 2011 has been a really great one and I really thank God for letting me know all the friends around me now.

I'm genuinely happy.

Back.

2011-08-28T18:05:00.009+08:00

This is probably one of the longest time span I stayed away from blogger. Study break started 2 weeks ago, and exams commenced and ended last week. Papers are finally all over and done with. Thought I did pretty ok for certain modules well I hope that's the case. Could have probably done way better for example for Econs and ITL if I paid more attention during lectures and tutorials but I see no point in whining over past events. Yup I will just await my results which will be out on 16th Sept.

7 weeks of my long awaited holidays had finally begun and 20 days of September are already taken up lol. Oh and yes I will be working for Nubox's booth at Suntec for the upcoming IT Fair from 1st-4th Sept so if anyone wants to get macbook pro macbook air or whatsoever, do come look for me! -commission- Hahaha.

And for the following weekend, gna be away for BAmazing Race 7. Will be sleeping over at Olivia's place the day before and settng off for the race tgt the next day. #TEAMREAO will make it thru the top12 for the first day and the top5 for the second day! But most importantly will be to bond have fun and complete the race! The chalets will then set in for the week after and it definitely will be helluva fun whoop whoop can't wait!!

Yup those are just some of the more significant events, the more large scale ones in a sense. Shopping dates steamboat buffet sleepovers will be inserted here and there and will definitely make the most out of this holidays.

Not forgetting the past events like study session at town, Jon's place and at sch which was really enjoyable made studying less stressful. Plus IKEA for lunch w Weicheow Ernest Olivia > Oli's place > Town all on Friday (also the day when the long awaited couple finally got tgt hehe really super happy for them haha we witnessed the whole proposal ^^) and again Town just ytd which was really fruitful haha came home w quality buys whoop whoop!

There were really so many more dates which I really enjoyed but yea my fingers are getting a lil tired so I am gna end this blog post as soon as I'm done w the last part.

Don't know if you will ever read this, but thank you Ernest!! Really really touched by your action whereby you ate 2 happy meals just to get two hello kitty watches for Olivia and I. I mean, where do you find such nice guys like him omg he merely saw our tweets abt it and when he passed us our watches he said "There, I fulfilled your wish." Super sweet of him righttt. Plus, he's the sort of guy who will text to ask if I reached home safely when he probably saw my tweet saying "WHERE'S THE BUS WHY NOT COMING SIA" Sucha sweetie right! So glad to have him in TEAMREAO <3

Yup and here are some photos!

And here are more photos from BANG which I just got.

That's about it, byeee!

BANG 2011

2011-08-11T18:46:00.008+08:00

BA eNtertainment Groove 2011 was really successful. Everyone looked really stunning, like wow the guys were all in blazers and the girls were either in their pretty little dresses or maxis. Not forgetting Red Bull was one of our sponsors cool or whut eh. Oh and yes congrats to Vibe Control for clinching first place!!! Grats to Remus woohoo we have a star in LMGT! :) And to Lincoln, Olivia, Darren, Edwayne and Kev, you guys did a really great job too! Luv their performances!! The concert ended at arnd 11 and we went for supper at KAP as usual hahaha imagine us at KAP in formals lol but yes we enjoyed ourselves very very much. Had a great night w Justin Weisheng Chris Ernest Jinquan Glen Yuting Bernard Adam and many many others!!

2011-08-09T20:24:00.006+08:00

Last Friday was the last official school day for this semester. Presentations, projects, assignments and researches all over. Lectures and tutorials have also ended accept for one last Econs tutorial tmrw which I will attend before heading for BANG! Really looking forward to it! I'm expecting it to be a saga of Prom Night? The theme is on Vegas and even the ushers are wearing bow tie how cuteeee! Okay I don't really have anything more to blog about, and here are the jpgs! :)

Visuals

2011-08-03T10:17:00.012+08:00

Hi all I am lazy to type out chunks of words so let the pictures do all the talking kk?

Pictures taken at Railway Track, Envoys Friday, Envoys BBQ,

Zhihong's 19th birthday and Mambo BBQ

2011-07-24T00:19:00.004+08:00

Quick update and I'm gna go bathe and coma myself. Surviving on 4-5 hours of sleep everyday is not okay. Body's in a very bad condition right now. Been sick for weeks and medicine ain't helping.

Okay anyway, walked the train track and ate at Clementi Hawker on Monday! The girls were a great company <3 On Tues, had POD briefing in the evening and I thought we were supposed to be in formals on Sat, so I went home to put my laptop down first and met Siying at Vivo at 8 to do last min shopping for formal wear. But turns out that the dress code was just black NP tee w jeans lol. But it was a fruitful trip cuz I got myself a smart looking set of formals. Paid 50 bucks for pumps and it's 10cm high. That aside, I borrowed the black tee from Gaddiel and he's super small size for a guy oh gosh. Many thanks to him though!! Then on Wed, Gaddiel and I stayed in sch till 1030pm to wait for Steph Evan Bernard Claudsen Bangjie Weiyang and many others who had BANG briefing. Went for supper at KAP lol I love jewing fries hehe and hahaha we played kartrider all the way. I honestly don't think I am a bad driver ok lolol. Kk for Thursday, had IJ and SNW as well as POD briefing 2. Then on Friday we had EF as usual and though the attendance decreased as compared to the first week, the whole event was still rather successful! Mass dinner at Pizza Hut and HTHT/lepak session outside BTP till midnight. Bonding sessions on Fridays are really wonderful, it's like we really do know more abt one another every week. The feelings good when all of us just come tgt and talk abt how's our week/family/social life and etc. Lastly, went for POD ytd and yes I woke up at 730 and reached sch at 750, yes you saw it, 20 mins and I was at sch. The event was a success, parents were generally nice and yup their feedbacks were that our EQ levels were very high!! Quite a good compliment!! So at arnd 1plus, we bused down to Vivo for SC outing. Justin and I were knocked out on the bus, really slept like some dead logs lol and yes we took the travellator to Sentosa and had some time on our own before heading to sky garden for mass dinner. Couple of funny dares whereby they flag poled Zhang Quan (if you know what it is lol), Alson, Gahwai and Gekchong pretending that they were talking on the phone w one another and there were shouting damn loudly throughout the whole convo to get attention from the public and not forgetting how Zhangquan and Gekchong stood next to this couple who was being intimate and they imitated their positions right beside them HAHA.

This week was indeed damn hectic w projs/presentation due as well as outings! Yup endured the week and the next thing to look forward to will be Timbre on Monday for Tiong's bday :)

2011-07-17T01:35:00.002+08:00

Time check : 138am. Started using the laptop at arnd 330 in the noon to do work and I just completed everything. JUST. Which means almost 10 hours in front of the screen okkk this is not easy. Crammed everyth into one day instead of the usual 2 days just so I could attend envoys bbq later. No more DSS weekend homeworks woohoo finished the last one today!! ITL research was completed, so was IJ ppt as well as summarizing the survey responses. Free from all work!! But okay things to do for the coming week will be to study for econs, amath tutorial 8 and wp project. Oh yes not to forget abt choreographing the dance w EF crew! This week is gna be one hectic week :( but on a brighter note, gna go walk the train track and have good food arnd Singapore on the weekdays! Can't wait for envoys bbq later, picnic @ barrage next Sun as well as mambo bbq next next Sunday!

July is one busy month.

2011-07-15T23:48:00.004+08:00

16th -
Complete 6 DSS excel docs
ITL project from 2pm-4pm
Finish off Idea Jumpstart ppt

17th -
Envoys BBQ @Pasir Ris from 2-10pm!

18th -
Meet up w Siying and Hazel!
Study for Amath test and complete tutorial 8.

19th -
Parents Open Day briefing @ 5pm
Conclude survey responses for IJ
Read up on Econs

20th -
Learn mass dance w EF crew
WP project 2 (allocation of workload)

21st -
IJ project meeting @10am
Parents Open Day briefing @ 5pm
Revise for Amath test

22nd -
Envoys Friday

23rd -
Parents Open Day from 9am - 1pm
PBL 2

24th -
Hyrda Outing 2 @ Marina Barrage

25th -
Town w Glen, Jovin, Jonathan, Nico and Jinquan!

Where to go and what to do for the next 10th days. Why am I so busy??? All these are after curriculum hours and not forgetting how drained out I will be after all lectures and tutorials. How will I be able to survive it all? Trying to balance out social and family life along with sch work is such a nasty chore.

2011-07-10T02:05:00.004+08:00

Current wallpaper of my laptop. New friends I met this year and worth keeping. <3

ENVOYS FRIDAY

2011-07-09T20:59:00.004+08:00

Had a really good Friday ytd w Envoys. Games from 4-7 and then we stayed back to take photos till around 8 or so. So many DSLRs, iPhones and normal cameras! We practically ran to anyone who was holding a cam lol. And forever photo bombing lolol. Then had dinner at KAP till arnd 1030. Bernard was nice, I had to change bus at his hse bus stop so he accompanied me till my bus came which was like half an hr later and he told me a story w no moral just to entertain me. Haha. Luv everyone who were present ytd <3

2011-07-06T10:09:00.001+08:00

Maybe I'm the kind of girl who needs constant attention. I would assume that you don't care anymore if you don't talk to me, for lets say, perhaps a day or so.

2011-07-06T09:12:00.003+08:00

Had sch from 9-1 ytd and we were supposed to stay all the way till 4 for ITL lecture. But the 3hrs break was really too long so we decided to skip the lecture and left sch at 1pm straight for Rocky's Pizza. Lunch was good and then Weijian and I went to meet Gideon, Reece and Benjamin for pool at Mambo. I didn't play, just sat there and waited for them. Had kfc afterwards and really last warning to Reece. Kept disturbing me gosh. Changed my password for my iPhone, didn't want to tell me and asked me to guess -_-

In DSS class now, vlookup averageif omg all these functions are swimming around in my brain. Kk need to stop here alr, don't know what's gng on in class~~

2011-07-04T20:59:00.008+08:00

Some visuals taken from the past few days. Sheila hasn't upload those from today's buffet @ sakae so I will post it another time.

On Sunday, Hydra met at Astons @ Cathay for lunch. Some of us were late lol including me hehe. Then Joel did this trick on me during lunch and somehow Idk why I reacted that way either, I just lifted my fingers and spilled the whole cup of water on the table and on my steak. Yah I had a watery steak -_- But it was fun rather entertaining in a sense, at least all of us had a good laugh, esp Yida LOL. Caught Transformers at 3pm. Rating for the show 2.5/5. I wasn't really into the previous 2 and not surprizing that the 3rd one didn't wow me oh and esp aft replacing Megan Fox with Rosie Huntington-Whiteley. I don't deny that she is pretty, just that my vote goes to Megan Fox. But everyone liked the show alot, esp Sheila lol. She's gna go buy the robots lol.

Went down to Compass Point aftwards to find the envoys crew. And yup had dinner w Joel Kelvin Yihui Hengxuan Alison Jianhui Chloe Emily Nicholas Kenneth. Had a good Sunday and definitely worth it to stay up all night on Sat to complete dss.

Gna go complete pbl2 and econs now. Ciaozx!

Stay-home Saturday.

2011-07-02T22:08:00.004+08:00

My weekend this week was ruined by the horrifying 6 DSS excel docs. I am only halfway thru the third one oh gosh. Staying up to complete it all before going out tmrw. CHIONG SUA.

Jovin and Glen asked me out to Scape just now since we have a $10 voucher each! But I couldn't abandon work today since I am out for the whole day tmrw which means I won't have time to complete the other 3 documents! Really hate dss okay, kk fine I don't rly hate it since it was my other A apart from math. But still, yucks.

Updated my iTunes thanks to Dorene! She transferred all her songs into my thumbdrive! Oh btw go listen to Stuttering by Fefe Dobson. It's really good!

Kk Imma go complete as much documents as I can right now though there are many loop holes for this module. Lecturer just makes sure you send it to him, but he doesn't open it up to see if you editted the contents lol so I could practically send him an empty document. Doesn't do me any good though.

Photos will be up for the next post so stay tuned :)

Into July.

2011-07-01T22:27:00.004+08:00

1st day of July was well spent. Met up w my soul sista and Haowen after sch for dinner at makan place. Old friends are indeed the best. Caught up on quite a bit and had to send Haowen off for his training first before heading to West Mall. Had this nice durian dessert at Queen's dessert I think, not sure of the name of the shop, but it's just right next to Frolick. Took almost 200 photos hahaha happy looking girls in the pictures! :) Then headed to frolick for frozen yoghurts yumz. And please let me mention how much I ate and drank today. MAGGIE MEE CHOCOLATE ECLAIR STRAWBERRY CAKE COKE SPAGHETTI ICECREAM CHICKEN RICE FISHBALLS FROLICK DURIAN DESSERT. I SWEAR I PUT ON 5KG. This isn't funny. Crash diet next weekkk onwards!!

Btw, got back my itl assignment, hehe 95% and CT for math 95/100 ^^ JULY MUST BE A GOOD MONTH ^^ Not sure if I'm meeting Dorene and Weijian tmrw to do the tutorials hmmz gotta really rush thru all work but not gna compromise on quality of course since it contributes to gpa oh gosh gpa really freaks me out. Many of us are around the 2.5-3.0 range and local universities require 3.7 or more sobs. :(

Anyway hydra outing on Sunday! Gna have a good time tgt <3

2011-06-30T21:34:00.003+08:00

The best relationship is when two person love each other, but decided to remain as friends, sweet friends.

Good food and good company.

2011-06-30T20:02:00.002+08:00

Ended sch at 5 ytd and went to ourspace with Glen for awhile to look for Dylan, Nico and Jovin. Team Orion were there too and all of us just nua-ed there and chatted. Went off for dinner at a restaurant at Forum called California Pizza Kitchen. They have the best pizzas omg it was really really good. YUMZ. Had a good long chat w the boys and this group of boys totally treated me like their brotha man, didn't even bothered to maintain lol chats were pretty wild hahaha. One of the topics was 'no strings attached' LOL

Then we had our after dinner walk along the long stretch of Orchard Road and yup settled at Scape for more funny and crude conversations hahaha. Can't believe I could stand it lol.

Finally got home at 1130pm, could had been earlier if I did not get lost at Petir Road. Loser much but who cares lol.

2011-06-29T10:00:00.004+08:00

It scares me how fragile we all are. We are just a bunch of nerves and muscles knitted together, barely held in by skins and bones. We are just a series of chemical reactions happening between a trillion little particles. I wonder what happens when it's all over? Do we simply become dust, like what they say?

Say hi to school

2011-06-29T09:16:00.003+08:00

3rd day back at school and yes I am late today. Missed two 75 and four 184. So annoyed early in the morning, and sorry if I spammed your timeline w all the complains ^^

DSS now and yes because I was late, I didn't get to sit w the usuals. Im stuck in between Yanting and Samantha. ZZZ. Long day ahead and it'll be a rotten day.

2011-06-28T20:37:00.006+08:00

2011-06-24T04:11:00.004+08:00

Envoys Main Camp 2011 #success! Best camp ever, no doubt at all. Gna briefly blog about the main events and skip the details cuz it's gna take real long to elaborate on every bit. Kay firstly, dirty games were indeed dirty, the name says it all. Soya sauce honey butter cheese wasabe sugar flour chicken leftovers and alot more. You name it you have it lol. Hecked everything else and decided to get dirty. BUT I had to throw away my nh pe tee, the old design one somemore! Sianz max. Didn't had time to change into the tee I planned to wear for the games. :( And not to mention I fell 3 times during 1 of the games lol. The chairs were on grass patches and it wasn't stable enough and I just flipped lol. Wasn't that embarrassing tho cuz for some reasons not everyone noticed lol. Then there was this station where we played Twister on wall. They stuck the mat on the wall and yes the guys had to lift us up and yah talk about cramps from awkward and unglam positions. But it was rather creative! Then the night walk was successful too. The story goes like this. They had this NPCC cadet in his full uniform looking lika real policeman standing there talking to Carolyn and Jonas (Vice-president and president of Envoys). It seemed damn real like what is the policeman doing there at almost midnight? And obv we didn't know he was a cadet, we fell for it thinking that he really was a policeman and suddenly everyone was told to gather outside the lecture theatre when we were halfway thru the horror movie before the night walk. We were told that blk72 lvl 5&6 was intruded by some thieves or smth. Sounds quite fake here definitely not on the night itself tho! All the excos were damn serious about it. And yeah it was also the venue for night walk so they said that all night activities had to be put on hold until the policemen finish inspecting the rooms and all. So at arnd 4am we were told that the activities can be continued, safe to go but obv we were still insecured right. Then yah ite everything was a scam and part of the night walk lol. It might not sound that convincing here but it made us worried for sure. You have to be there to feel it lah. Oh and yes the performance night was great too! Hydra was damn into taking photos btw 1 group 2 cameras 1000+ pics in 3D2N. Cool or whut hahahaha. Okay I might upload some photos when I get up later, time check: 4:32am. Body clock screwed max. Otherwise, you can just go to facebook. Most photos are up alr, waiting for the Excos to upload the rest :)

SEXCOS EXCOS SEXTANS CAMPERS FTW

2011-06-18T02:31:00.009+08:00

Couldn't bear to abandon this space so I am here to blog before snuggling under my blanket. 2nd last night to enjoy the bed before heading off for Envoys Camp. Have already packed and all ready to go. Sleeping bag, shoe bag and everything else in one medium-sized bag how wonderful. ITL and PBL2 project meeting on Thurs and Friday respectively. Was really into the project mood and got work done for ITL but it's only due on 18th July lolol. As for today, had too much fun and it was as if we were having a picnic. Cornetto pocky myojo sandwiches coke~~ But still we did managed to assign tasks. Nth else to elaborate on the meetings, except that having Weijian around, we couldn't stop ourselves from disturbing him. Sucha nice guy hah. And I swear his eyes can talk like gosh just get him to look in your eyes and sing you a love song and you will melt. Not exaggerating at all but that is provided you don't burst out laughing halfway thru. He's like a sister to me though and if he ever does that I bet I will laugh till the abs start kicking in. APPLEBOY94 *winks*

Then headed to West Mall w Dorene to get camp stuff and had Frolick! The swing in the shop and the atmosphere hehe I like. Hi future boyfriend please bring me there or the other pretty shop next to it ^^ ok reality check: alone and single. T_T nvm, am happy that way~ Parted w Dorene and headed to Lot1 for dinz w Mengting. Walked around and decided on pasar malam food + kfc. Bet I gained 3kg tonight ._. Mom said my fats are back alr :( There was a time I dropped 2 kg w/o any change in diet nor exercise. It was just sudden and obvious enough to be noticed. Mom says it was perhaps due to stress so I was like 43.5kg but now aft tonight I am sure I hit 47kg >_> who to blame~~ Me myself and I. #FatForLife. Don't even need the weighing scale ewww hate that object. Anyway I had a good catch up w my dear girl and when 2 girls come tgt it does not necessary mean gossip session okkk we exchanged life experiences instead haha ok sounds weird but ya you get what I meannn.

Finished watching The Fierce Wife ytd why is Wen Shen Hao so charismatic. He's in his 30s and he somehow attracts me in an inexpressible way like ok guess what I said to my mom. I told her I want to marry him. I don't mind the age gap he was just like wow totally fits the bill of my ideal life-long partner. Ok day dreaming. Oh and yes I started watching bits and pieces of Gossip Girl cuz everyone arnd me seems to watch it and yes I succumbed to peer pressure zz. Regretted not watching it during my 5 months break argh cuz time is really not on my side when sch starts. But still gna make time for Chuck and Nat cuz they are simply amazing.

Okay nth much alr I guess. I can't type anymore, I'm using my phone to blog btw and my fingers are fat and the buttons are like tiny and the auto correct and all~~

Oh and yes to all campers please take good care of yourselves!

CIAOZX

2011-06-12T22:55:00.001+08:00

2011-06-12T21:15:00.005+08:00

CTs are finally over oh Lord! Math was a breeze, could do all 6 questions and all the sub questions! Gotta thank Nan Hua and Mrs Tan for my good foundation in Math. ^^ Not tryin' at all to boast but I think I should compliment myself a little for being able to do the paper right? Been a long time since I had the chance to praise myself lah ok I was failing all the way throughout my sec sch days whoops~ Econs was some what ok too. I guess I could say trying-to-rush-for-the-last-train went as planned. Cramming in as much details as I can all the way till 4am really wasn't easy at all. Had to post my doubts on Twitter and thankfully my tweetbudds were all awake and studying too and they could respond to my tweets. Really thankful to everyone! Esp my dear JC girls, Mengting and Jasmine! Only expected my coursemates to respond, but aww the girls replied too <3

So aft the last paper on Thurs, all of us went to Vivo for PartyworldKTV. Rather funny to see the guys sing and echo after us lol. Secret Recipe for dinner and then Dorene and I went to get Gong Cha! Gosh it was heavenly good. Gong Cha > Koi. Then on Friday, slept in and watched YSSS! Cantonese dubbed > Chinese dubbed. Luv the way the Hongkis speak! Slacked the day away and that was pretty much it.

Town on Saturday for Dylan's 18th birthday! Main highlight was at Glen's crib when all of us did covers for Tong Hua and Just The Way You Are. Rather heartwarming! Then went to Benedict's hse at arnd 2330 and Benjamin, Songwei, Zhiwei and Reece were there too. The guys are damn funny lolol. Homed at around 2am that night.

And finally today I slept from 4am-4pm and 530pm-8pm. Screwed my body clock for sure but who gives man the hols are here. Oh and gosh I don't understand why Bryan Keong keeps calling me. 4 times alr, and ok I missed all 4 calls. Not on purpose kk, I know I am rather contactable but Idk why I always miss his calls but why does he even call me ah? I don't get it. Spoke to him less than 3 times f2f so what are the calls for hmm ._.

2011-06-06T00:53:00.005+08:00

Hi all I am finally updating this site of mine. As usual, the past week was hectic and there're so many details to go into but nah I'm not gna do so. Shall just type out the most impt bit.

(You may skip this part if you don't wish to read)

Kay basically X kinda confessed and I really didn't know how to react I guess. Not ready to commit and not ready to be tied down. And most importantly, I don't wish to hurt anyone. So yep I rather be the bad person now and make him hate me by telling him "friends will be better off~" or smth along the line, rather than dragging it on. He has been phoning me everyday and asking if I want to join him and his friends aft sch or smth and well obviously the feeling isn't mutual so yeah I tried finding excuses and yes I'm running out of excuses soon. I swear I sound lika bitch right now but hey I feel uneasy y'knw? Like being sent to my doorstep and dining 1-1 w a guy I don't have feelings for. But still, I have to say X is a really really nice guy. And I can't afford to hurt him in any way. Perhaps I have been hurt before so I know how to put myself in his shoes. I have been single for 1 year 4 months and I can pretty much say I enjoy being single? As much as I want to have a boyf cuz everyone arnd me are all attached and I really envy seeing them being so happy w their partners, I know I can't be selfish. In Poly, ALL (notice I use ALL and not MOST) relationships are long-lasting and stable. So unlike the secondary sch relationships that we have all witnessed. Definitely don't wish to get into a r/s that will only last 1 month. I know what I want and what kind of guy I will fall for. I'm gna take things easy and take my time. Not in a rush to get into a relationship, cuz a proper start often leads to a proper end. And a proper end leads to broken friendship. I don't want to lose any friends, they mean so much to me. I hope X can understand.

KAY ENOUGH ABT IT. Having that aside, last week was my last official week at school. From Monday onwards, it'll be CTs and I only have 2 papers, Math and Econs on Tuesday and Thursday respectively. And I will have my 2-weeks-long June break. Have alr planned out my schedule lol gosh I don't see myself so on track for studies, but yeah I deserve my break! Doing pretty well in school, just gotta brush up on ITL and Econs, my 2 biggest weakness for now. Math, DSS and WP are alright for now so ya plz stay this way.

Bro's leaving for 2 back-to-back camp and I will really miss him. We are v close if you guys do not know. And yes I hope he will enjoy himself and don't get too worn out tho I know he definitely will cuz hello SPORTS CAMP w so much soccer trainings~~ Anyway have fun, brotha! (L)

I don't think I have anyth else for you readers, so yep, nights all ^^

2011-05-28T19:30:00.003+08:00

Got this pic from Twinzo's blog, and gosh this pretty girl of mine thinks so similarly as me. It isn't exactly a good thing though, but I guess the both of us are going through the same issues over and over again. The people around me might perceive me as a bubbly girl, but there are times when I stare too, wondering what I did wrong and what I could have done differently. I have a regret that not many know, in fact no one knows what exactly took place except for myself. I dare not tell anyone in details cuz I was afraid that people might judge, since that's what everyone does, including your closest friend. That's why I kept it to myself and keeping it inside is killing me daily.

2011-05-28T16:29:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was sucha good Friday. Original plans of steamboat/tzechar for dinner got replaced w Domino's Pizza at Cheung Tin Street. Inside jokes and bday celebrations for Aloysius and Adrian went well. Last minute decision to pool failed and instead we went to Macs@KAP to lepak. And coincidentally met Trina, Tricia, Alvin, Elycia, Xinying, Jiaying, Suay, Chunxian and Haowen. Seeing familiar faces everywhere! The night was great w good food + great company! The boys sent me to my bus stop and waited for my bus w me and finally all of us homed at 12ish.

On a side note, so glad that eLearning week finally ended. Completed all my work as listed in my previous post, except for DSS (which I am gna start aft posting this). And did I mentioned, PBL was submitted at 2136 last night!! The one-month-long project was finally completed. The moment I clicked the 'submit' button that sent me crazy going, "OMG FINALLY! HELL YES, GOTTEN RID OF IT AT LAST!" The feeling was even better than walking out of the examination hall for the last paper for Olvls! Not joking at all!

Sch will resume from next week onwards for 2 more weeks (CTs :/) and then followed by our 2 weeks of holidays (envoys camp!!!) and it will then mark the end of my first term in NP :)))

Kk now I've gotta decide if I want to go for my make-up training for touch rugby on Monday/Thurs, since I missed it last week. Sch ends at 12 on Monday and Idw to stay all the way from 3-5 just for training. Would rather go earlier on Thurs to have my make-up from 10-12 and then 3-5 for the usual training. Both on one day.

Alrights, I'm done w posting. Stats were a little higher than usual for ytd, so thank you to all my readers. Luv you all ^^

2011-05-24T01:11:00.007+08:00

eLearning for the whole of this week. Here's the list of homeworks to be completed before the clock strikes 12am on Sunday.

HOMEWORK! Credits to Jiaqi!

1) Maths: Mol - Equations, Polynomials, Logarithmic Functions and Trigonometry
2) Maths: Tutorial 3,4 and5
3) Web Publishing: Blog
4) DSS: PBL
5) DSS: PBL Presentation
6) ITL: Project
7) DSS: Challenge Yourself for lessons 8 and 9 and Unit 3 Applications 3-2 to 3-3 on pages 410 to 412 to Mel\Assignments\Week 6\Tutorial 5. Deadline for submission is midnight, 29 May.
8) DSS: eLearning quiz by 29 May
9) ITL: Do a self study on Chapter 3 Supply Chain Management from page 1 to page 8 up till before 'Distribution Strategies'
10) ITL: Answer questions no. 1 to 4 in Tutorial 3.
11) ITL: Write in about 500 words, an account of your visit to the Pasir Panjang Wholesale Centre and Jurong Island during the Freshmen Orientation Week. Describe the things you have learned from the visit and your personal observations related to the logistic activities and facilities at the two locations. Students who are absent from the visit will have to do their own research on the web or gather information from other means on these two locations.
12) Maths: For week 7 lecture (30 May and 3 June), please complete December 2010 Common Test paper on page 122 and 123 of your lecture notes.
You may leave out the following questions: 1ai, 1aii, 2b, 2c.

1), 2), 4), 5), 6), 9), 10) and 11) have been done. I want to strike out more, gosh.

Please don't say Poly is slack, it isn't even close to what you guys deem it to be. Flexi hours and no uniform, that's it.

And to my sec4 juniors, Charmaine, Hazel, Crystal, Joan, Jiehui, Yingying, Jane, Siying, and Meiru, though I alr know some of you're heading to certain JCs, I still hope you guys will come join me in Poly kk! Miss you girls so much, gosh :( All the best for prelims, I know you girls will ace it! :-*

Oh and here's 3 pictures taken on Friday, still waiting for the rest to upload it on Facebook!

Kk about time to head back to work, nights everybodehhhhh.

2011-05-21T15:57:00.008+08:00

Getting into Ngee Ann Poly, Logistics Management and Envoys are the best things that happened to me in my 17 years. You probably won't have any idea how thankful I am to have met those around me, for the past 1 month. I really appreciate what they have all done for me. Just yesterday, when I headed back to sch in the evening to meet them, they said, "RACHEL! We missed you so much, though it's just one day, but it was weird not hearing your voice on a school day!" Smth along the line, and they probably didn't have any idea how that sentence made my day. It made me felt really good, to know that there's this grp of friends who will back me up. I felt needed, and loved. And there's nth more important than that.

AGM AND EF were the other 2 highlights of the night. I swear Envoys is the best special interest group ever. You have no idea how glad I was to be able to make it through the interview and joining the family. KAP was dominated by all of us and it was the best Friday ever. It was the first time meeting some of them but hey there wasn't any awkwardness at all and it really felt as if we knew each other way back. I really can't wait for all the upcoming events and camps in June cuz I know that will be the time when all of us bond and have fun tgt as one. ENVOYS FAMILY (L)

2011-05-18T22:19:00.003+08:00

An old phrase that we have heard of so many times, but still valid. -Treasure your loved ones.

It's at times like this, when we realized how often we take things for granted. Uncle Patrick was called home on Monday :'( and the past few days were hectic, school and rushing down for the wake. Cremation will be on Friday and I know it will be a tough ordeal for my cousins. They lost both parents within 2 years. Maryann broke down and asked "Why aren't my parents by my side anymore?" I really don't know how to comfort her. It was as if a knife stabbed right through their hearts. The pain they're going through aren't something we can understand. But I know they will be able to manage it. RIP, Uncle Chua.

2011-05-15T23:02:00.003+08:00

I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY NOW!!

BEST SUNDAY EVER.

MAY ALL THE SUNDAYS BE LIKE TODAY!

2011-05-14T16:21:00.006+08:00

I have known this for 2 weeks already.
About time to pick myself up and finish the rest of the race.

Cuz I want to have the best, it's better for me to not expect.

From now on, I will live each and everyday as happily as I can. No more tears, no more over-thinking and no more sadness. I know I have said this before and it didn't exactly worked out as planned, but I am gonna try it one more time. Life is too short to be wasted away on all these. There's so much to be done and time isn't on my side. So why waste it on brooding and being down? What for cry over what I have lost? Why not think about what God have set aside for me for the days ahead. Family and friends are all I really need right now. I want to be a better girl, better daughter, better friend. Please give me some time to prove myself. I want to put my words into actions. And I mean it. As for relationships, it can be on hold. 17 only, no point rushing into things and then regretting it only later on. I know I will be alright. :)

Town Town Town!

2011-05-10T09:29:00.003+08:00

School from 8-12 ytd, and met Mengting to head to town after. HotTomato for lunch at 313@Somerset and then 4 level of Forever21. Then onto Orchard Central for VANS, yep I got a maroon colour one cuz red was a tad bit too bright like RonaldMacD and yeah in a way, poser too lol. Then we went on to ION for Muji, Mango and RiverIsland. But I only managed to get a black top from Mango, and then a pencil box and caramel popcorn from Muji. OMG MUJI HAS THE BEST SNACKS EVER. GO TRY IT YOOOOO. Then we went on to Bugis for more shoppings, and I got a dress and another top as well as WOAITAIMEI's miltea ^^ Spent alot on food omg, can't believe I am paying for fats lol. Great catch up w Mt, and as usual we talked abt everyth under the sun.

I am glad the day started and ended off well. :)

2011-05-08T19:56:00.002+08:00

Jianrong's right. Maybe I should start picking myself up and don't make it seem as if my life is out of order without him. I know I will be fine, it's just a matter of time.

Rachel, get your cheery and bubbly self back!

2011-05-08T03:11:00.005+08:00

I was in a really good mood, just 5 mins ago. I was having fun w my Youcam and taking photos when I just suddenly thought of you. Idek why you just entered my mind so suddenly,... perhaps it's cause you never left. I know it sounds as if I quoted it from somewhere, but it describes my current feelings.

There's so much I want to tell you, but I know I can't. I am definitely not treating this as a game, cuz it's too much for me to handle. I cried 5 times alr, I don't want to carry on. I am srs abt salvaging this friendship, but what can be done when we no longer talk? I have never fallen for someone this deep in sucha short time span. If I am not wrong, today is the 11th day alr, I find it a torture not being able to talk to you. I will pop by your Facebook and Twitter at times, just to find out how are you doing in sch and what are you busy with. I am not crazy, I am still sane, but you really mean a whole deal to me. As much as you don't believe, it's still a yes. It hurts me alot to know that you're doing completely ok w/o me. But I guess, it's normal when the situation is an one-sided issue. I don't blame you.

I don't want to blog abt sad issues and all, it bores people but who can I find to talk at a time like this? 315am in the morning... I am considering to lock my blog up since I am blogging my inner most feelings and Idk if it's a good thing w everyone reading it, but I feel that there's nth to hide at all. I don't want to give you pressure nor anyth, kk pressure's not the word, I don't know what it really is, but I just don't want you to avoid me. I want you to treat me like before, I know it's hard w the current situation but plz don't ignore me. I die a little every time we don't talk. I miss you, alot. Even as a friend, I miss you. I feel really upset.

2011-05-08T00:33:00.002+08:00

Hi guys, been away for 4 days, yep was BUSY. Poly is happening and fast-paced. Everyday passes so quickly and I am in poly for 3 weeks alr. I have alot to say but as I blog, I forget everyth.

Ok I will try to rmb... Thursday was S&W and we played touch rugby! Will be playing it for the many weeks ahead! Warm-ups were okay, passing was fine too and yes my class has like 25 guys and 7 girls. Cool or whut lolol. Trina and Lixue are pretty and nice girls, my clique for S&W, along w Alvin! Haha he's super nice and cute too HAHA.

Coincidentally, all the Thursdays were spent w LPT. Had dinner after at BTH and the guys walked me to the bus stop again and waited for my bus w me. Poly guys = gentlemen ^^

Friday had make up lessons from 8-10 and yeah Alex, Glen, Weijian and I were eating lika boss at the first row lolol, the lecturer didn't seem to mind at all LOL. Then 2 hours break till 12 and then 1 hr of maths lecture abt trigo. Break from 1-2 again, and 2 hours of maths tutorial. Completed all math tutorials and went for BAenvoys interview. Think I did pretty ok, hoping for the best, I promise I will commit and hopefully main comm kk ^^ Everyone was waiting for me at Ourspace and I felt super guilty! Went to find them straight after and rushed to TBP for Fast&Furious5! MAD AWESOME I SWEAR. Can't wait for part6!! Then we had dinner at eighteenchefs and yup that sums up my weekdays.

Rejuvenation on Saturday and woke up at 3, did DSS and went out for dinner at BPP. Luv Jack's Place omg they have the best songs ever. All my fav English songs were playing. :)))

And before I end, CLASS2'11, I LUV YOU GUYS ALOT. THANKS FOR MAKING MY POLY LIFE SO ENJOYABLE. LUVHUGMUACKS.

And to Daniel and Jianrong, thanks for being there for me, cheering me up and all. Msn convos and talkbox chats w you guys were great. I will be strong and I will be ok. Sorry for being weak everytime we talk abt it.

Kk nth much to elaborate abt alr I guess. Gna head back to work, goodnight all.

2011-05-04T18:22:00.004+08:00

Saw you 3 times today and I realized we weren't exactly like before, anymore. I know it's my fault for turning things into the situation it is today, and I regret it, alot. Each time I want to say hi, either by shouting your name across or doing the "psst psst oi" thing, I got held back. I thought I was courageous enough to go up and say "Hi!", afterall, it's nth big, it's just an acknowledgement and how much courage will that take? But still, I couldn't do it.

I will take a second look, everytime I chance upon a guy w the similar hairstyle as you. I will get all nervous when I see a back view similar to you as well. I want to treat you like a normal friend too, but this isn't easy at all.

Alot of things are gng thru my mind now, but yet I can't pen my thoughts down. I shld just stop here.

2011-05-04T10:15:00.009+08:00

Dinnered ytd w Remus, Aloysius, Weijian, Glen, Dorene, Brian and Adrian at BTH ytd. Food was okay, companion was great. We laughed, chatted and took photos like always. Went back to NP in an attempt to find Joevin and Szeming after, but we left before we found them cuz it poured. Ok no more words for now, some pictures instead :)

Do we look like siblings? Haha.

Aloysius, BFF.

Szeming!

Jolene!

LPT :)

Yuhui!

Alex, Brian, Weijian, Remus and Dorene.

Benson!

Jonathan!

She's awesome, so glad to have her w me at the beach that day!!

Remus and Glen

Jacky, Jinquan, *inserts name* and Weijie, I think.
Can't rmb the last 2 names :/

2011-05-02T01:55:00.007+08:00

HI ALL I HAVE NTH BETTER TO DO SO I WAS ON FB AND I CHANCED UPON THIS SO THEREFORE I AM HERE TO SHOW YOU A PIC...

OF MY COURSEMATE...

HE LOOKS LIKE ANTHONY NEELY HERE RIGHT. HAHAHAHA. HE DANCES V WELL KK, AND THIS PIC WAS TAKEN AFT HIS DANCE PERFORMANCE. OK HE MIGHT KILL ME OR WILL PROBABLY THANKS ME FOR ADVERTISING HIM LOL.

2011-05-01T13:24:00.002+08:00

There's always this one guy who seems so perfect to a girl. And for me, it's you. I really wonder how can I treat you more than a friend when I barely know you. It's just so unbelievable. I feel so distant from you and idk how's life for you. I really want to communicate more before anyth happens. Sighs.

-

2011-04-29T11:30:00.002+08:00

Kk currently at Ourspace w coursemates cuz we got released 1 hr and 15 mins earlier. LOL. Shall take this time to blog since I don't really have time to do it at home. Have not been home for dinner ever since sch started except for the weekends and yep disappointed Mommy a fair bit but yea, I am sorry Mom. Idk if you will get to see this, most probably you will so I shall say it here. I am really sorry. Idk what else to say alr so yea...

And tmrw is MAMBO SAT OUTING. I really really want to go cuz of personal reasons but my grp only has one other guy gng. The rest are like working and basically not enthu abt it. So I will most likely feel lonely but I am willing to heck abt the lonely part just to go see you. People who know me, know that I hate being alone and I don't want to be alone. But for you, I am doing this. I hope you will sense it okkkkkkkk pretty pretty plsssss. I am gna prove you wrong soon, I am treating you as someone way more impt than the other guys. We haven't texted ytd and I am alr feeling empty. Why am I worried abt losing when it wasn't even mine to begin with. :(

Hmmm...

2011-04-28T23:48:00.005+08:00

Honestly, I have no idea what to name this post. Sch is hectic. You guys must be thinking, "Poly's hectic?! You kidding me?! Thought only JC?" My answer is yes. Unless you are really independent and don't need spoon feeding from the lecturers, then yes Poly is right for you. If not, JC isn't that bad too. It's only the second week into sch, ok excluding baow, this is the first official week and I am feeling so stressed up alr. I can't keep up. My attention span is really poor, and can you imagine, almost every lesson you will have you laptop placed in front of you and c'mon this is really a distraction. I don't even put in the charger anymore, I hope the laptop just runs out of batt and tada no distraction. I promised myself I will get > 3.5 for gpa. But sadly I am starting to find this hard. Though seniors have been encouraging and saying it's only the second week and it's still too early to tell, I still think I know myself pretty well. And yes can you imagine the lazy&slack Rachel has completed and submitted her DSS tutorials due next Friday? Yes this is how hard I am trying to keep on task. Ok moving on~

Monday and Thursday, dinner-ed w the lepak team. They are a rly nice grp of guys and I feel comfortable around them. Though at times they'll have their men's talk here and there and I don't seem to understand, but being arnd was kinda good enough. Let me try to name them all. Weiliang, Alson, Jed, Weicheow, Daniel, Sherman, Gah Wai and Jianrong. Jacky and Winson too. They are one of the main reasons I look forward to sch, honestly.

Tuesday and Wednesday, ate w classmates and coursemates at Munch and srsly it was non stop laughing. I have never laughed so much in a week before in my life lol. Love them too! Meeting everyday at Cheers half an hour before lessons start and getting lost like lost birdies at times haha! So yes poly life is great tho everyth is quite fast-paced ;)

Ok and lastly, this is abit still too early to tell, Idw to rush into things and I am still not sure of my feelings yet, but yes, I am treating you more than a friend alr. And I know it isn't just as simple as an eyecandy. I can't believe that I actually felt jealous when you were close to her in the aftnoon and I felt abit sianz when you didn't walk me out to the bus stop when I left first. Ya I know you are in the midst of games so it was alright, I understand. Ok nvm these are my inner most feelings so yea, just saying~ I do hope it can be mutual as time passes tho.

Kk time to slp so, nights all ^^

2011-04-24T13:15:00.003+08:00

I guess I am too cool for sch eh? My body totally came crashing down on me :( Flu, cough and sore throat just aft 1st week T T suay maxxxxx. But anyway, on a brighter note, this long weekend was kinda good cuz I had ample rest and I stayed home on all 3 days ._. could had went for movie, mahjong and karaoke on Sat but yea didn't ite. No liferrrr lol.

Skyped ytd night w the guys and it was quite funny. Wl cannot tank my "Ahhhhhhh" HAHA. These guys made my poly life alot more enjoyable ^^ and hope to see them as often as I can ard in sch :)

And lastly, I am an iPhone user now. Better late than never yeah? :)

BAOW 2011!

2011-04-22T17:09:00.004+08:00

Hi guys it's been awhile since I updated this space. Poly life is simply too happening to summarize in this little space here. In case you guys have no idea what BAOW is, it stands for Business and Accounting Orientation Week! I know not everyone will agree w what I am gna type here, but this are my inner most feeling abt the past 4 days.

Day 1 wasn't boring, but it wasn't happening either. We learnt some cheers and Timothy and I alone were louder than the rest of the group mates. So being the enthu ones, Tim and I mingled w our SCs which were our Student Coordinators, otherwise known as group leaders who are all year2s! They were Jacky, Alexia, Cris and Yihui! After the cheers, we went on w CCA fiesta and yep I decided to join BAenvoys ^^ It's abt planning events, hostings, and deejayings. In between we lepak abit and played some card games w Kevin, Jacky and many others! And so aft that, Cris told me I was chosen to be the mascot which was representing Mambo for the solo concert. And I was part of the performers' crew too. So we stayed back and practised till arnd 9 pm!

I skipped day 2 though and had to give up the chance of performing cuz I was feeling too unwell, basically I passed out and fell on my head and had to have a brain scan at the hospital lolol and yeah became the audience instead when I was back on Wed. But I didn't mind cause the girl who replaced me danced even better than me. So yea when I was back on Day 3, all the SCs were really nice, some called and texted me to ask if I was fine and stuff, and it was a good feeling to know that you're being cared for. So in the morning we had our dance concert and yeah the Convention Centre was 2 storeys high and could sit up to 2000 of us I think since the entire sch of BA were all there. 3 hours of concert and afterwards we splitted up into our courses and went for talks and yeap met up w the classmates too! Went for dinner tgt at Clementi Mall afterwards before heading home.

Day 4 was the best. It was srsly a blast. Early morning 20+ of us went into the lecture hall 20 mins late cuz we were waiting for one another, and the thing was that, despite knowing we were gna be late if we insisted to wait on for one another, no one actually said "Eh I go first, I don't want to be late" and blah, you know those typical kiasu students? So LMGT was rly bonded and the lecturers were pretty impressed w us! I think I am gna love Math cuz of the awesome lecturer! We went for field trips to Pasir Panjang Wholesale Market as well as Jurong Island aft and had lunch at WCP before heading back to lepak. Ok 2 things abt poly, everyone shuffles and everyone lepaks LOL. Even I can shuffle now lol. So we lepak-ed at Ourspace@72 where Alan came to find me to pass the tix to Yingxuan cuz Mengting didn't turn up. And I have to say GLAM NIGHT 2011 was a blast. It was definitely the highlight of the whole BAOW. Everyone there were high and jumping and we went w the SCs namely, Jed, Alson, Weiliang, Jacky, Sherman, Daniel, Winson, Wilfred and the freshies, Rose, Huixian and Cheryl! There were many more but I really can't rmb their names alr. We gathered in a big circle, arms acrossed one another and we just took turns to solo in the middle. Shaun, Dennis, Gwee and Alan came to join us for awhile too! And tho there were some technical difficulties but I'm pretty sure everyone enjoyed it still! Left school at arnd 1030 and we went to lepak at KAP till almost 12 before heading home. Cui max and still having the post-party feel!

THANK YOU ALL SCs FOR PLANNING BAOW. I AM SURE ALL OF US HAD FUN AND SEE YOU GUYS NEXT SAT :)

2011-04-17T23:12:00.003+08:00

Operation Sleep failed in a sense cuz I am here blogging still lol. Trying really hard to adjust my body clock back but this takes awhile... Sch's finally starting tmrw, and as much as I want to go school, I don't want at the same time. Mommy asked what have I done for the past 5 months and I replied, "Sleep!" Sounds ridiculous I know but I can tell you this, for everyday of the past 5 months, I slept for more than 10 hours each day and man nth beats sleeping ok. I know it sounds lame but is true. And I sleep really peacefully w no homework-not-done issues, test-is-tmrw-I-am-dead and blah. You get me? Like everyday just eat sleep shit, no stress no nth. The an1xin1 feeling. But yeah this break is expiring in 40 mins and yes it's time for sch again. A whole new environment and a grp of new friends. Oh yeah LMGT peers I know y'all read my blog. Stats increased significantly lolol ever since I know you guys. And if I appear abit dao tmrw, don't take it to heart cuz I need time to 'warm up' yea? Don't really know all of you in person yet. Haha. Kk hopping for the best for BAOC for the next 4 days! Fully booked from 8am-10pm every night lol so won't be blogging I guess unless I have smth exciting to announce lolol so yeah keep reading to find out more kk! Hopefully I will have some photos to show you what's life at NP :))

Goodnight all! :>

2011-04-16T17:24:00.004+08:00

Guess what time I woke up today? ...7am :) Managed to sleep at arnd 1am due to the drowsiness from my medicine, having slight flu and yea hopefully body clock's adjusted too. Went to GMS to sao mu and yep there was no jam and it wasn't that bad at all. Went to Macpherson for the best duck rice in Singapore after and now I'm at cousiee's place. Stalked ____ & ____ w Momsie, Aunty, cousins and Grandma! And they said they were good looking ^^ Kay now gng for dinner soon, so ciaozx~

Hair, pls grow.

2011-04-14T22:41:00.003+08:00

This is my new hair length, 3 inch shorter than the one below.

Hair, pls grow, I promise I won't cut you for the next one year, and I mean it. My last haircut was a year ago.

2011-04-14T01:31:00.004+08:00

Okay looking at my archives, I blogged really little this month as compared to the previous months. And w sch around the corner, I really think I will abandon this space. But still, thanks to all my lovely readers, stats are stil more or less the same ^^ And yes this is my timetable for this semester, which is up till Sept.

Monday - 8am to 12noon.
Tuesday - 9am to 1pm, 2 to 6pm.
Wednesday - 9am to 1pm, 3 to 5pm.
Thursday - 1pm to 5pm.
Friday - 10am to 1pm, 2 to 4pm.

Mondays, though I have to wake up the earliest, I am free from 12 noon. Omg this is good. I have the whole day to myself. And for Thursdays, it's just S&W (PE) and CEP lessons. So I guess I am pretty satisfied w this timetable?

NP LMGT 2011

2011-04-14T00:44:00.004+08:00

In no particular order:

Yuxuan, Remus, Adrian, Amanda, Desmond, Jinquan, Yingjie, Szeming, Dorene, Brian, Glen, Glenn, Joevin, Ginny, Qiuting, Elaine, Farah, Ada, Weijian, Sockwei, Tingyi, Yida, Vanessa, Yuanying, and Brenda.

Thank you guys for being around for the past 3 days. Msn chats on every night (though it was really hard to keep up, 100+ notifications in 2 mins) and notifications on Fb from all of you almost 24/7. Though some of us are closer to one another but hey we're all from the same course, so I hope no one feels left out yea? We still have coursemates joining everyday and I hope they're able to catch up w us!

Quoted from Yingjie, "Shout out JIAOWEI gang and the 25 of us will gather"
Quoted from Brian, "Impress the GL when they ask us to self intro and we could name out all our names even before introducing.
I found this 2 quotes quite meaningful and I hope it really happens.

You guys made me felt alot better as I was really worried about making new friends. I am no longer as worried especially when Dorene said "0815 Clementi Mall MacD for breakfast kk"

All of you are really nice people and though we are all of different ages, we seem to get along really well. I hope it will remain this way and I look forward to seeing all of you on the 18th! Happy birthday in advance Dorene!

2011-04-06T22:32:00.003+08:00

Monday was Elearning day for NH so I met up w Jethro and Siying. Phoned Jet at 1050 cuz he said he needed a morning call in case he couldn't wake up in time. But he went back to sleep aft the call and only woke up when Siying called him again. So he was very very late but both Sy and I were in a good mood so we shopped arnd Vivo while waiting for him. Had Pastamania at Harbourfront Centre and Sy was supa cuteee, she made all of us laugh till our pacs developed, I swear we laughed for more than 5 mins HAHA. Then we went back to Vivo for karaoke and Jet made us mic hog for 4 hours, lotsa eng songs and chinese towards the end. Parted w them at arnd 7 and met Mt for dinner at Lot One. I love short catchups w friends and we updated each other on what's happening and blah. So I realized it was just a 新鲜感 feeling... Bought a pair of slippers from Cotton On. Its red w polka dots! And I need retail therapy real soon, got my sponsors hehe!

Then on Tuesday, impromptu decision to go out for dinner but I enjoyed it. Mengting called me when I woke up at arnd 4 oops and yeah showered and went to Lot1 to get myself a brown belt before heading down to PJC. Kelway said he saw me but it was too dark so he did not say hi. Haha kk so Mt and Ryan picked me up from the entrance and I must say it really feels weird entering a JC when Imma poly kid. So we sat arnd the study corner while waiting for Joseph to end his canoe training and we went to the canteen for awhile and saw Wallic and his friends. Then the canoe guys came and we went off for dinner. Ate at Lot1 w Mt, Ryan, Dominic, Joseph, and chanced upon Weikun and Oryan. Don't really know them well cuz they were Mt's friends but they were quite friendly so the dinner was quite awesome. Fb is really indeed one of the most amazing and awesome invention ever, we showed the guys some girls and interesting responses from them LOL. Parted at arnd 930 and I bus-ed home w Ryan and Joseph. Wasn't that awkward and yep hope to see them all again :)

2011-04-04T00:27:00.003+08:00

School's gna start in 2 weeks' time. Mixed feelings are filling me now. I am not dreading school cuz I really want to start sch and this life of mine for the past 5 months is way too lifeless.

Though Clementi is still the stop that gets me to sch, but it'll be a whole new compound w new faces. Canteen isn't just flights of stairs away. It is now buildings away. Alot of changes will take place and I am afraid. Afraid isn't the right word to describe, but you know it's those feelings that make you feel unsecured? Cuz you dk everyone well enough, you dk who's really nice or if they're just pretending? You get me? I will have to take at least a month to not get lost and many more months to know everyone.

Idk how my classmates will be like. 95 of us will be splitted up into 4 classes. I sincerely hope they're nice people and are friendly and approachable. Cuz I am the chatty and outgoing type, so Idw to appear to be unable to blend in well if they're not so sociable. I want my clique to be fun-loving, always 'on' even w impromptu decisions. I want them to live near me so we can all go home tgt and not living at the north nor south. I want to have common interests w them.

I am really worried now. Like what if I don't manage to feel welcomed by my coursemates? What if they're hard to communicate with. I am really afraid of feeling lonely on the first few days of school. I hope the bonding camp from 18-21st will allow me to make some friends.

And then onto studies. Poly students need to have even stronger determinations than jc kids to not get distracted. I have to get into a local uni. I promised my parents to show a good example for my brother.

I hope LMGT is smth that I will like. I hope NP is a poly I will enjoy myself in.

Back.

2011-04-03T01:48:00.005+08:00

Friday.

Went to NP to get the programs required for LMGT installed into my laptop. Met Sinyee there and it took 45 mins or so? Kk lah the grads there were quite nice and yep tho new faces were everywhere, I felt welcomed! Then went home to have lunch and put the laptop down before heading back to NH for CCA. Collected my grad cert w testimonials and result slips and lol the testimonial was written alot better than what I expected and it seemed a little fake? LOL. Ok perhaps that's what the teachers think of me :) CCA was fine, I am starting to see all the efforts of the juniors and before I forget, GRATS 69TH COY FOR CLINGING GOLD!!! Keep this flame burning kk! Ok doesn't sound like a right phrase to describe but aiyah wtv. Half year no step into classroom is like that one, limited vocab lolol. Went off w Jiayun and Jiehui and they accompanied me to OKtea! HAHA DA ZHEN ZHU XIAO ZHEN ZHU CAN ZAI YI QI MAH? HAHA! Enjoyed the bus ride alot and I love my girls alot (L), love is an understatement btw! :>

Oh yea and it was April Fool and I pranked 2 guys and both of them fell for it and took it so srsly that I had to call and explain cuz texting wasn't clear enough and the jokes can't be misinterpreted LOL.

Saturday.

Went to Crystal Jade for high tea w family and it has been awhile since we went out as a fam. Dad's always travelling and I was out w friends for the past 3 Saturdays! Went to Clementi Mall afterwards to check it out, first time there and basically I wasn't surprised in the sense that "OH WOW THEY HAVE (name of store) HERE!!!" cuz basically every shopping mall have Watson, Guardian, Challenger, World of Sports, Cotton On and etc ._. But on a brighter note, STARBUCKS!! HELL YESS!!

Oh and yes, the story goes like this. Dad went to remake his specs cuz he left his previous one on the plane lol and aft he was done w it, bro said he wants to check his eyes cuz he can't see the whiteboard clearly. So turns out that his perfect eyesight was no longer perfect and he is now a 75 on right eye and 50 on left. Me being enthusiastic cuz it seemed fun, asked for a check too. And turns out I have shan guang, which is this double image thingy. I did realized it some time back, but I just thought my eye wasn't on its best on that day. I asked if the right eye was worser than the left and indeed it was. Plus I have a mild degree of 100 and 75. Man I thought I had perfect eyesight too T T The optometrist was like "How can you not know you have shan guang and jing shi???" And I said, "Er cuz I half year no see whiteboard alr lol" But still I wasn't that convinced so I did a second check up at another optical shop and this time round they say 175 and 150. WTS so I hecked and just made a full black framed specs of 125 and 100? Sian ok I have to wear it whenever I watch TV, use laptop, read newspaper/books or looking at whiteboards and projectors. I look like a toad. T T

K enough abt specs, we went off to Partyworld but it was fully booked, hate the manageress there man, even Mom agrees. I nearly quarreled w her the last time I went w Alan and Shaun. She's damn rude! Couldn't sing so we went for grocery shopping at IMM. Man I hate GIANT kk, I feel damn giddy whenever I enter perhaps cuz the lightings were too bright? Oh and plus trolleys and people in the way T T Then dinner at this Jap restaurant and saw uncle and his fam there. And Yixiang too. Haha.

Nth much to blog abt alr, wow this is sucha long and wordy post. Had the urge to type so yup bear w me ^^

3 days late but WELCOME TO THE MONTH OF APRIL.

2011-03-29T22:16:00.002+08:00

Hi I think I might abandon this space since I no longer have any interesting story to tell. Life is so average these few days, or perhaps even below average and I think I am losing myself soon.

Jar of Hearts

2011-03-28T01:02:00.002+08:00

We sang, we talked and we relaxed.

2011-03-27T19:41:00.004+08:00

Spent ytd w Alan and Shaun and it was simply awesome. PartyworldKTV and HTHT. Not gna blog in details cuz apparently the guys don't like it when we reveal too much on our blogs. HAHA. This was ranked number 3 when being asked "What guys can't stand most about girls?" and number 1 goes to "SMOKING" and number 2, "RANTING/WHINING or simply playing mind-guessing games w him". We talked alot, like really non-stop and yep homed just before 12midnight. That's abt it. Plz organize more gatherings kay guys!

And guess what, the cycle is happening to me again. I know it's pretty much likely that I will be disappointed, but I guess I am willing to risk it, once more.

2011-03-25T00:28:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a rough day for me. I felt so down. I couldn’t find any reason to cheer myself up. Not at all. I stood in the train, with everyone around me, and I was just one of the many. Not outstanding, at all. I am just an average girl, perhaps even below average. A girl who’s not pretty, not smart and has no talent. And sadly, this is me.

2011-03-24T22:30:00.004+08:00

Haowen's chalet on 22nd and 23rd was rather impromptu cuz it was cancelled and then organized again. Stayed over w/o bringing clean clothes nor toiletries so thank god for Anne. She came straight from camp so she had everyth! Srsly I will die if I didn't bathe~ Spammed lotsa photos and MASS TAUPOK. LOL. Jsyk, not only our guys taupok, NH girls taupok too ^^v! And we taupok-ed Ben and Hw! HAHA. Sikai came over aft midnight w alcohol and they drank and HW DID SILLY MOVES. LOL. The chalet was fun and yep checked out during noon, had HANS and went off to Anne's place and we chionged 5 eps of Personal Taste :) MIN HO IS MY NEW LOVE. HEHE.

2011-03-22T00:32:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAOWEN! Hope you like your card and your present ok! I spent hours! Haha. See ya later!! :)

2011-03-20T23:52:00.003+08:00

Ok there isn't much of a highlight for this weekend. Went back to Grandma's hse on Sat and yep she cooked alot. Eat in and take away LOL. She made us bring home bags of food and yeap this is my grandma, she's the best! (L) Nth much to say about today, stayed home and kept on asking myself why didn't I sign up for NP 4days3nights SPORTS CAMP. I didn't read the instructions properly and I thought that they will just call you up randomly to tell you you have been selected for camp and etc. But turns out that they'll only call those who signed up ._____. Why those that signed up nvr ask me did I sign up not uh???

Anyway this week should be funn! Haowen's bday chalet on 22nd, will be overnighting most likely ^^v finally convinced parents... And yep Shaun's hse on Sat w Alan, Dennis, Siewkiang and Mengting for karaoke! SHAUN IS SO CUTEEEE. Eyecandied him ever since he performed for Teachers' Day Concert in 2009! Guys who break are cuteee!! Ok hope he doesn't see this!

I laughed so much, my pacs are developing.

2011-03-18T01:17:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 830am and rushed thru everyth and met Mengting at 10 at JE lib. Lol she was telling me how badly she needed the loo HAHA. So she had her time in the toilet and she was texting me abt her shit LOL like in what form and etc. HAHAHA. It's okay tho, good friends talk about everything, right? :)

We went down for spaghetti and Wallic came to find us, then Matthew came at 1+ till 2ish and he went off for gym and then Wanxin came. He's too into green lol and I agreed w Mengting that he looks as if he sells insurance w the laptop bag in his hand. LOL. It was pretty much ok throughout and we laughed and talked too loudly, so much that the guy next to us kept on diao-ing us OOPS. And yep I learnt a few new words today, *recapping*... vin means wine, un means one, rouge is red, rose is pink, triste is sad, neuf is nine, yep that's all I rmb w/o referring to the notes I copied down LOL. Determined to master French, give me some time!

Then we bought icecreams and strolled to IMM while we eat, for Ichiban! It was so takayi okay my heart's feeling the painnnn. No money left okay, ah but what to do :( The week ended, living off parents on the weekend so it shld be fine I guess?

On our way back we met Aaron and he looks cuter now HAHA. I miss NH and everyone else. But sad to say, NH no longer makes us feel like its our second home, it's starting to become nothing more than just a school thanks to weallknowhoyoshhh.

And JE lib is like occupied by NHrians all the time! I saw Michelle, Huixin, Andy, Yujian, Kiathoon, Germaine, Yiming and some juniors. It is that coincidental. LOL.

2011-03-16T22:27:00.002+08:00

Got myself a Tumblr yeah I know I am slow. But will still try to maintain my personal blog as often as I can, cuz Tumblr is addictive. Follow me :)

2011-03-14T23:50:00.004+08:00

Lunched at Lot1 w Mengting today! We ordered spaghetti, mushroom soup, salad and brownie! All for $7.60! Price-friendly right! We gossiped abt our boys and yup I enjoyed the catch up! But she forgotten to tell me she had to go off at 230 to meet her trug girls! So I called Jerrald to ask where he was and as usual, at Matthew's crib LOL. So I decided to head over w Mengting and she met her girls later. Only Kenneth was in the room when we entered, and Jerrald nearly entered aft bathing only in his underwear cuz he didn't know we wld arrive so quickly LOL. So he was hiding outside the door w only his head sticking out and asking for clothes HAHA. His clothes were all over the floor and here's the convo:

J: "Can you pass me my pants?"

MT: "This one uh?

J: "No! Not this one, the other one in the plastic bag!"

MT:" Which one sia? This one uh?

J: "No no!!!"

HAHAHA but he got the right pants lah ite. Then Wenxuan and Weikun came over and we watched Paranormal Activity. It wasn't exactly that scary aftall, but cuz it was my first time watching, so I had my eyes covered for almost 2/3 of the show? LOL.

Then Kenneth decided to let Kaizer in, okay Kaizer is Matt's dog. I am rly scared of cats and dogs if you don't know. It has been a phobia since young and I know it wasn't fair to have Kaizer locked up in the other room, so Kaizer joined us on the bed, we were all sitting horizontally facing the tv, and honestly I was more afraid of the dog than the movie ._.

Aftermath, we headed to Lot1 for food cuz the guys were hungry, and otw there it drizzled so 6 of us shared 3 umbrellas and MT was so direct! HAHA. Jerrald offered to shelter her and she said "EHHHH why Jerrald sia, Idw Jerrald HAHAHA." Weikun and Kenneth took turns to shelter me and yep we went back to the place where MT and I had lunch and I ordered a brownie w icecream. Jerr can't eat nuts so I was shuffling brownie in his face HAHA.

Mengting and I cabbed off to Maplewoods and Ngee Ann Poly respectively aftwards. Met daddy there to get my laptop and to pay sch fees. I got myself a Fujitsu one out of the 3 choices namely, HP, Lenovo and Fujitsu. Dad had to rush back to office for work, so I parted from him and guess what? I WALKED HOME FROM NGEE ANN POLY. DOWN THE NP SLOPE > TO THE MAIN ROAD > THEN TO PEIHWA PRI >TO BUKIT TIMAH HAWKER > AND THEN ALONG THE LONG STRETCH OF CONSTRUCTION SITE > CHEONG CHIN NAM ROAD > ALONG THE 1KM ROAD PASSING BY COURTS AND BUKIT REGENCY > TO HUME AVENUE > UP THE HUME AVENUE SLOPE > AND FINALLY CROSSED THE ROAD AND BACK TO HOME ._. Impressive rightttt!

Photos from Char's bday!

2011-03-14T00:15:00.006+08:00

Meiru!

Yingying!

Jiehui!

Joan & Jiehui!

Buddha shot? LOL

Meiru & Siying!

Siying!

Yingying & Meiru!

2011-03-13T20:03:00.004+08:00

Often in life, you have to choose and make decisions. You might not necessarily be happy w the outcomes of how things are, but yet you can't do much abt it either. Life is a routine of mind-guessing games for everyone. We expect, we get our hopes up high, and then we end up disappointed and broken. However, it is all these regrets and disappointments that completes life. You have to be prepared to give more and receive less. You have to know that those who care, might not be there for you all the time. You need to realize people come and go, and those who stay don't stay for long either. You learn things the hard way. Through tears and failures, you become a stronger person. No one knows what's best for you, except for yourself. You have the ability to control your life, and how things turn out. If it's worth fighting for, don't leave it to fate, go for it. If it's not worthy, then let go, so that the better one can enter. There's always a reason behind every action, and there's also a reason why things don't work out. You can't please everyone, but you can do what's right. Be appreciative of what you have, and don't take things for granted. Cherish, cherish those in front of you. Don't regret only when it's gone. It's pointless. Life isn't smooth-sailing all the time, and there're hurdles here and there. But eventually, you'll cross it. The only difference between a happy and sad person, is the way he/she handle his/her problems.

Stay strong, Japan.

2011-03-13T03:08:00.003+08:00

2011 will be a tough year for Japan. W the earthquakes, tsunamis and volcanoes erupting all at once, many more lives will be taken away. :'(

I will be praying for those in Japan, may the rest of you be blessed to survive this ordeal.

We had a date, just me and her.

2011-03-13T02:08:00.003+08:00

Hehe Siying and I had a date today, at TAB, opposite Orchard Hotel, HOOKED ON FLEA. It was the best flea I have been to so far, lol cuz I have only been to 3/4? Haha. So yep good ambience, good music, and yeah the tops there were pretty too! But a pity I had too little money on me, so little that I feel abit no face to type out the amt here LOL. But nonetheless, I had great fun still cuz I managed to get 2 tops (a floral and a plain red one) and a ring at v good prices!! Hehe I think I have great skills when it comes to sha1 jia4! LOL. Happy w my buys, rather fruiful! :)

Sy and I decided to camwhore along Orchard Road aftermath and HAHA srsly I think I have the makings to be a model ^^ KAY I AM JUST KIDDING KK JUST SAYING LAH I AM SO NOT PHOTOGENIC SIA T T Plz keep the comments to yourselves when you see it on FB kk.

We changed our plans and did not go to Clarke Quay nor Cold Stone Creamery. Went to FEP instead for oyster mee sua!

It was fun shopping & camwhoring on a Sat at Orchard (L) Sy love ya muacks!

She had to go off to her Grandma's and so I went on w my part II. Haha I went to JE lib to meet Mengting, Matthew and Kenneth. They were mugging and I was there, stoning LOL. JC vs. Poly lol. I attempted to read up on H2 Chem but srsly I can just forget it, O lvl Chem alr cannot handle, needless to say H2. :/ It was quite fun overall cuz of epic moments when Matthew went HEHEHE and oh my, MERMAID sticker and BLINGBLINGS on Kenneth's calculator HAHA.

The day ended off pretty well and yep now I'm camping at FB doing wall posts, kay I am just saying, I srsly don't see why strangers will like my status (challenge), srsly Idk you how to post on your wall sia~~~

Nth much alr, so yea ciaoz!

2011-03-12T00:59:00.007+08:00

I was supposed to have lunch w Bryan at 1315! And at 1245 I told him I have to pangseh him :( Guilty x forever. But my reason was valid. Siying texted and she was so upset and I thought that I shld head to sch earlier to talk to her. So I told Bryan that I was so sorry!

Went to Big Bookshop to get some gifts for Siying! Thankfully she likes it alot! And I walked back to NH, was drizzling and the back gate was not open :(

Met Siying at Sky Garden and we had a long talk. We have so much in common so it makes it rly easy to converse! I really hope she feel better now and I am so looking forward for tmrw! Camwhoring by Clarke and Boat Quay w her!

Aft the talk, she went for ICT and I went off for GB.

Tough drill on the sec1 and 2 girls. I knew I was over the limit this time. I was practically shouting thru out the 2 hours and being rly angst. Jet, Nich and Daren were watching from 2nd floor and they could hear me shouting. :/ But I apologized at the end of everyth, cuz I know I was too harsh. Plus, Mrs Chng, Ms Tan and Officer Adeline scolded them as well. Quite sway lah, last day of sch, supposingly in holiday mood alr, ended up being scolded by all of us! First time Ms Tan shouted in that manner!! :/ I kept on emphasizing that I don't care what others think of GB, I'm only concerned abt what the GB girls think of their own CCA. If they don't show pride at all, how to gain respect from other CCAs? Sec 2 girls, you girls really have to buck up. Second year alr and yet the sec1s are better than some of you. However, I really appreciated the fact that they didn't attitude me when I shouted at them and made them drill in the sun intentionally. You girls know I am generally v friendly, but when it comes to drill, I have to be strict enough. Sorry girls!

Kay aftermath I went off w Jethro, Jack, Jerms, Yewheng, Daren and Nicholas and they accompanied me to back gate bus stop where I met Qy and her friend for dinner at IMM. Haha ACSI sounds quite cool, oh and grats to Qy for getting into Council! We went to JP aft dinner to find planners but to no avail T T sianz the rly nice ones cuz 28.90 :( So we dropped the idea and walked arnd, and then we met Stephy and her boyf, some other guys from ACSI and Tom's cousin, Weijie. They were all hanging out and we just bumped into them, so all of us trained home tgt! Mommy came to pick me up at BB and yep home sweet home.

Lastly, Charmaine, plz stay strong!!! No matter what others say and think of you, you have me here w you. I know what's gng on and I don't think you're at fault! Keep the faith kk, jiayouz!

2011-03-11T23:32:00.002+08:00

Alr feeling v down cuz Char and Siying are so upset, and when I got online, this person said this:

____ says:

"you don't text me, i don't text you. simple as that."

rings a bell? i text you you don't text me. shen me lai de?

Rachel says:

sorry

not the time to talk abt this now

____ says:

noted

I have a reason to not reply you ok, I don't feel v comfortable talking to you. Not just you alright, I don't talk to ppl who add me on Fb and then text as if v close like that. I rly can't be bothered to ask you who you got my no. from, I just hope you can understand kk, pls.